Today I have felt so strangely. Not good or bad, but strange.
It may have been the weight lifting yesterday. It may have been staying up late and getting to know new people.
But this whole day, I have been different. I don't get it.
I woke up at 7:30, and I swear I thought I was still talking to people from the night before. As in, rolled over and expected to see the faces of those I'd been talking to. After I reminded myself that I was absolutely alone in my bed, I conked back out and slept. And slept. And slept. Way longer than I should have (I blame the workout and late hours. Whose fault? Mine. Do I regret it? Not at all). But it felt really, really good.
So I got up and went about preparing for the day. I had coffee, read the paper, looked over stuff for my classes, and rather spontaneously went to see Charlee and her roommate. But all the while it felt like the body I was running around in wasn't mine. That may have just been toxins released during the workout the night before and newly-awakened muscles, but it still felt strange.
On my way to my chemistry lecture I got distracted by all the rain. Things like the way the puddles were shaped, th
e way the water dripped off of the leaves in the trees, how fast my hair was getting wet. Before I knew it, I'd been wandering around, just watching the world, for twenty minutes. So I was already going to be late for class. Rather on a whim, I ran back to my dorm, put down my books and picked up my camera. I ran around Bellingham for two hours in the rain, just watching the world and taking a few pictures. Periodically I would check back into reality by talking to my friends (I kept passing them all), but then I retreated to little dreamer-girl world and kept milling around town. It was like I was in a trance. I actually forgot to eat for about ten hours and didn't notice.
It may have been the weight lifting yesterday. It may have been staying up late and getting to know new people.
But this whole day, I have been different. I don't get it.
I woke up at 7:30, and I swear I thought I was still talking to people from the night before. As in, rolled over and expected to see the faces of those I'd been talking to. After I reminded myself that I was absolutely alone in my bed, I conked back out and slept. And slept. And slept. Way longer than I should have (I blame the workout and late hours. Whose fault? Mine. Do I regret it? Not at all). But it felt really, really good.
So I got up and went about preparing for the day. I had coffee, read the paper, looked over stuff for my classes, and rather spontaneously went to see Charlee and her roommate. But all the while it felt like the body I was running around in wasn't mine. That may have just been toxins released during the workout the night before and newly-awakened muscles, but it still felt strange.
On my way to my chemistry lecture I got distracted by all the rain. Things like the way the puddles were shaped, th
e way the water dripped off of the leaves in the trees, how fast my hair was getting wet. Before I knew it, I'd been wandering around, just watching the world, for twenty minutes. So I was already going to be late for class. Rather on a whim, I ran back to my dorm, put down my books and picked up my camera. I ran around Bellingham for two hours in the rain, just watching the world and taking a few pictures. Periodically I would check back into reality by talking to my friends (I kept passing them all), but then I retreated to little dreamer-girl world and kept milling around town. It was like I was in a trance. I actually forgot to eat for about ten hours and didn't notice.I did drag myself to sociology, but only because there are so few classes left and because I wanted to get my midterm back (88%-- I was actually kind of mad about that...). But I was late because I was dancing around to "God is a DJ" in my room.
In my defense, I've spent the last two-and-a-half hours working on a research paper (slash talking to my friends). But other than that, I kept wanting to look in the mirror today to remind myself that I am still me, because almost everything I did today was out of chracter. Maybe I just needed a day to bust out and chill out. Or maybe I just need spring break to come. In any event, I've been acting strangely today.
In my defense, I've spent the last two-and-a-half hours working on a research paper (slash talking to my friends). But other than that, I kept wanting to look in the mirror today to remind myself that I am still me, because almost everything I did today was out of chracter. Maybe I just needed a day to bust out and chill out. Or maybe I just need spring break to come. In any event, I've been acting strangely today.
2 comments:
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I know exactly what your talking about Molly, I've felt exactly the same way today. I really don't feel like going to classes tomorrow at all.
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